The human mind is an incredible tool which works in so many ridiculously impressive and unpredictable ways.
The feelings we have make us human and have a big influence on all the things on our minds.
I recently discovered how close minded some of the “open minded” people actually are, hell I discovered, that even I am the close minded at some things.
As much as I hate all of the feelings I am carrying inside myself, I have to admit, that I am happy to be filled up with emotions instead of a hollow shell.
I am feeling sorry for all the people around, who are just interested in money, materialism and capitalism. Don’t get me wrong, money is important, having a new electronic devices was and always will be for me a thing which makes me happy and capitalizing on a project you have set up yourself is a good thing how to go through life, but seriously guys… That’s not it, is it?
Is this all you seek in life? “Getting money, getting bitches“ – as they say?
Yes, it all looks so perfect from the distance, having the money you can afford anything in life, having all the sex you want will not fulfil your heart with love on a long run.
I want as well money a working business and all the sex possible somehow, but I will rather settle up with a normal job, living a healthy love filled life with hopefully having a wife one day and just be happy to be here, instead of all the money.
I would change all my money, education, knowledge and belongings just to be happy.
Some say: “If you are one of those people who thinks ‘Happiness is not about money, it’s not about things you can buy’, then you don’t know what life is about and your argument is pointless as you have never been poor”.
I can only agree, I have never been poor to the point of being homeless or begging for money, but I also was never rich and my whole family was on a money roller coaster putting us up and down on a regular basis.
What I am saying is, that I would rather be a poor person with a heart of gold than a person with a golden house without any feelings and stone cold.
Today I woke up with a good feeling, having a match with a girl on one of the social applications on my phone. Filled with a little of hope I grabbed my phone and started texting her.
She rejected me.
You see rejection is something we need to deal on a daily basis, it doesn’t matter if it’s in human relations, your job or any other area. I think I have been rejected so many times, I should be used to it.
In the end it was not the rejection that hurt me, because being honest, people need time to even like me or talk to me in a normal “friendly” way and I don’t blame them, I am an unstable piece of hard work to get to know me.
The thing what hurt me was the rejection followed up by insults about my intelligence by a girl which I approached with an open heart.
Even though you are not into these apps, stay with me to get my point.
You don’t know anything about that person and she doesn’t know anything about you but your profile description and some pictures. That’s all you have and all you can work with.
To make it a good conversation you have one shot and that is one message, it’s the decision if you gonna stay in contact, if she even replies or if you even want to give it a try.
I suppose my approach is not very good and therefore I am less successful then my friends at this and I don’t even mind, I just mind trying to be honest, friendly or just a gentleman, which is not respected and clearly not appreciated nowadays.
I am the nice guy showing up at your work with roses for your birthday, but women don’t want that.
I am the deluded guy writing to you a good morning and thinking about you before I go to sleep, but women don’t want that.
I am the weird guy who stays with you if you are sick and look after you, but women don’t want that.
Well, what do women want? I don’t know that (obviously).
But what I know is that just being nice is not enough, or it’s maybe even too much.
Nowadays the game has changed, you don’t win by being good and nice, you don’t win by giving love and forgiveness and especially it will not make you happy, because you gonna get hurt every time you expose yourself like this.
Coming back to my initial idea. I love being emotional and being filled with feelings, but man…
Man… It’s hard.