The Search goes on

In modern society everyone is on a search regardless of the subject of matter, there is always a search going on, which brings everyone forward.

You can find people searching for love, fortune, the perfect job, new stuff they want to buy, the inner peace, happiness or even themselves.

I was pretty much my whole life living in the impression that life is about the searching for a beautiful woman, who would like to have a family with me a nice job which can bring food on the table and a roof over our heads which will make us feel good and secure.

The more I searched for the woman of my life, the harder I hit the ground of reality again and again to find myself in a deeper low than the one before. Trying to avoid my previous mistakes I was getting up and I tried again to achieve my goals and therefore the search would have an end and I could finally be happy.

It took me about 25 years to realize that this approach is a naïve foolish way of living.

Don’t get me wrong, the idea is great, American dream like and just something which everyone would like to achieve somehow, but reality is different. Life is not fair and this is not a cry for help nor a pessimistic view of life.

It’s more like a realization that life has so much more to offer and my close-minded self couldn’t see the forest for the trees.

My impression of happiness was to get that girl, score that job position, start that family and build that house, but I didn’t see, that only if I get happy, then I can get all of the other things. Maybe I didn’t want to see it or maybe I am still wrong and in another 25 years I will read this article and think what a moron I was.

Writing the previous paragraph, I had to stop for a second and think. Tell me how is it, that if I really am in need of happiness to achieve all of my goals, I know people who are only complainers or only pessimistic people, but have more or less achieved all of my goals in a faster way.

I mean how comes that the negative complainer I know is in a long lasting relationship getting that job, the money to achieve the next step.

Does that mean, that the negative complainer is actually happier than me and found somebody to complain with? Does it mean that the negative views of a Nazi who is terrorizing the neighbourhood but has a beautiful family at home is a better person than me and therefore deserves all of these good things?

Who did I hurt to not deserve a slice of cake?

Why is the boss of a multimillion-dollar company, who is screwing the secretary and cheating on his wife happier and more blessed than someone who is just on a search for their whole life?

How comes that people who are not able to finish high school, have children in the ripe age of 18 and never really achieving anything much happier than people who are intelligent, but struggling their whole life to find at least a little bit of happiness.

 

I don’t know the answers to any of these questions.

 

I can guess that the complainers found each other and complain together in peace and happiness. I would guess that the Nazi was raised wrongly and will face karma soon enough. I would hope that the rich boss will be judged and sentenced as he deserves and I can only wish, that the young parents will be having a healthy and happy family, but where is me in all of this? Where is you? Where is the happiness we seek?

Everyone is on a search… Some might have found what they were looking for.              Some might not even give it a second to think about stuff like this and others… well, others might never find peace and happiness.

These are the poorest of us, the saddest examples… But also the strongest ones, who deserve to be praised for their bravery and dedication to go on, no matter what.

Shout out to all of you who are still searching for whatever you are searching…

I am here, I understand, I am one of you, don’t give up, search everywhere and I wish you to find whatever you are looking for.

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Everything is temporary.

Every year, month, day, hour, minute, second and moment in this life is temporal. Every single period of time is just here for a short occasion until it disappears and a new one starts.

I know this is common knowledge, but did you ever think about it in detail? This child playing on the playground is with every day wiser and gets to know more things. That grandmother is daily facing the cruel reality of getting older and your first kiss with yesterday’s date is also gone so what now?

A lot of people are planning ahead what to do and a lot of people are also not planning anything after all, but the importance of life is living in the moment and not thinking about the future, worrying about your past or regretting not fulfilled dreams.

We have to live in the now and here, realizing the importance of being alive in this very moment and filtering all the things which are not important and are just draining our attention.

It’s easier to say, than to do… If you have been on a concert lately, you are going to realize how many people are actually enjoying the evening and how many are recording a video / making pictures to enrich their precious Instagram and Facebook wall. I do not judge people, who are doing that, I was indeed also one of those making videos or pics so I can remember the moment and think about it retrospective.

What was for me a moment which should be remembered forever did actually evolve into a moment I did not enjoy as much as I could. In the end watching your favorite band in the front rows of a festival through the screen of your smartphone is less than entertaining. Instead you could just leave your phone in your pocket and actually LIVE THE MOMENT.

It really hit me when I realized this little tiny detail of enjoying and living in the moment, instead of just making a record of something I will probably not even look at again. A very important role in realizing this played for me the writer Eckhart Tolle with his book “The Power of NOW”. This is one exemplary book which teaches you how to focus on the now in a greater scale and I would recommend it to you as for your inner balance.

I need to admit, that it took me longer to understand what Tolle is writing and it took me even longer to actually focus on the now and being able to live in it and yes, I am no expert, so I am not able to live in the now every single moment, but just realizing it and thinking about it makes a hell of a difference.

Try sometimes to switch off everything around you, regardless if you are outside between people, in a car, at home or at work and just filter it all thing by thing.

Imagine you are in the car (please don’t drive while trying this, or reading this 😊 ).

And now try to filter every single sound you hear, the cars engine, the radio, the wheels going over the street, the other cars outside, your driver. Close your eyes and take a deep breath, realize all the smells around you, the cars interior, the fresh air coming through the window, the flowers outside, yourself and your driver and just keep enjoying the moment totally awake and conscious.

In this moment, try not to think about anything, be cautious to not get tricked by your brain into another web of thoughts, just stay still, don’t overthink stuff, focus only on yourself and the short moment you are living right now.

You can do this wherever you are, you don’t need anything for it and it can help getting your life in a little balance as it supports your inner self and works as a sort of meditation.

I am not a person who would meditate on the floor with incense filling the room with a nice smell while listening to mantras, but hey if this is something which helps to get you calmer, then it’s exactly what you should do. Who am I lying to, I also used to listen to some mantras to make my head empty, not being mad at anyone and just focusing on myself.

In the end it is a temporal moment. It will be gone any second now…

Try to enjoy life as much as you can, we are here just once and life is too short to only make pictures and videos of situations which we do not fully enjoy. Therefore again, sometimes please just stop and enjoy.

Busy people who are always having something on their mind need this to calm down. The problem is, that most of these people clear their head with alcohol, sex or drugs, which is good for a while but not on a long run, therefore try it, empty your head and open your heart, you might be surprised what happens. 😉

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What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger

Overall I am quite a healthy person. I am working out as much as I can, I don’t eat fast food all the time and do not avoid all the veggies, anyhow I am still a meat enthusiast and enjoy to get a burger and fries from time to time.

Due to my sport activities and reasonable eating habits I am getting sick once a year or less. In the last few years I have always be working even though getting sick. Because of my field of business I have been able to work from home or just be healthy enough to go back to work and survive the 8 hours of coughing etc.

This year it was somehow different, I got sick and needed a rest. This was the first time in the last three years and I will tell you one thing. Being sick is no fun.

Despite the fact, that you are in bed suffering various problems, there is always the time when you feel a little bit better and you have free time. This free time can be invested in many things to develop yourself, learn something new, get in contact with old friends or just quietly suffering.

In the first days you mostly enjoy that you don’t have to be doing anything, nobody judges you and you can just lay down, watch movies, drink your tea and eat some fruits. After a while though it starts to be repetitive, the movies are not enjoyable anymore and you are sick of all the tea you are consuming on an hourly matter.

When my doctor told me, that I am going to be a week at home, I was already complaining about being at home for more than 24 hours is quite annoying and I got nothing to do. The doctor looked at me with a bright light in his eyes saying: “I would be happy to be at home, because I could finally learn something new. I never have time to learn whatever I want to learn.” This was quite inspirational hearing it from your doctor, who is probably well educated and doesn’t stop learning at least according to his words.

After a while of suffering from your illness you need to get your *stuff* together and actually do something to not feel like a little piece of *stuff*…

Laying the whole day in bed is putting you down, not being productive is making you feel useless, the drugs you are taking can also support the depressive feeling in your mind and the actual sickness is just helping to have a bad feeling overall.

Once you get on the point of feeling really bad, because you didn’t achieve anything in those days, you start to wonder what are you doing wrong and you start to judge yourself. I mean you can’t just sit here everyday, doing nothing and expecting to feel like superman.

It took me 4 days of planning what I want to do, to actually doing anything. Not that I couldn’t do it, more like I didn’t want to do anything. Demotivated, suffering and overall bad mood just drags you back to depressing thoughts until you decide that it has been enough and in my case, write down several topics I could write about. And this article is one of the first productive things I am doing during my illness.

What I wanted to note with this writing is just the fact, that you need to get out of your comfort zone even when being sick, realizing what you are doing wrong even when you feel badly, trying to get back on your feet even though it’s just a mental stat you got to achieve and stop with feeling miserable, to achieve mental health and therefore also physical health.

It doesn’t matter if you start to watch a podcast to learn more, train you guitar skills, read books to educate yourself, search for a new job or even sort your documents and settle some fights you had with your friends. The point is to start something and do stuff, so you fill your inner emptiness and feel better, so your body can adjust and also start to feel better.

This is the first step of getting into shape again. Mental preparation to face the real world once again and after the illness coming back like never before.

Stronger, educated, aware and transformed.

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Snowflakes are a lie.

My whole life I have been living in the illusion I got burned into my mind by my lovely family.

Don’t get me wrong, I love my family, everyone. Even the weirdest members of my family regardless of their contact to us or not, I love them from the bottom of my heart.

I have been raised in the generation of ‘special kids’.

As our previous generation of parents didn’t get much love those days and were lacking the sense of sharing thoughts and believes if they were too liberal. My parents tried to make it up with sentences, which my generation heard much more just because the lack of love from previous generations.

Therefore, all of us was is so special, so unique. Our generation is full of genius individuals, famous artists and technical master minds. NOT…

Most of our generation has been raised in thinking that we can achieve whatever we want, that we are the change this world needs and that whatever comes up to your mind, you are able to do it.

Even though I support this idea, that we raise our children in a good manner, make them have some self confidence and embrace all what they want to do, it would be nice to stay on the realistic side of life.

Yes, stars, this is what we need to reach for, but also realizing that you are not special. “You’re not a beautiful and unique snowflake. You’re the same decaying organic matter as everything else. We’re all part of the same compost heap. We’re all singing, all dancing crap of the world.” (Chuck Palahniuk – Fight Club)

As harsh it sounds and as trashy a quote from Fight Club is, it has a great point, which I can only support at this point. I am no special unique snowflake. We are all going through the same mud, the exception is what you are going to do with it. One of my favourite quotes is “We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars” By Oscar Wilde

In my personal opinion it is the same as the one before, we are all in the same situation, it only depends what are you doing with it and how do you want to approach it.

Now I would like to make a shout out to all of the positive people in the world, who know they are in the same gutter but still keep their heads up and do whatever they can to go on, keep that smile and helping people to smile again as well. To all the people who are not giving up and to all of the people who want to reach those stars. You are the real heroes we need, but remember we are all the same after all, the only difference is that some are aware of this and go on sharing positivity, some are aware and settled with the sad truth and some are just unaware and will never learn.

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The more you know, the less you know

The learning process I was undergoing in the last couple of months gave me the chance to realize there is one special characteristic which I really really really hate.

I am talking about selfishness.

As a small boy I already learned how to share my toys even though I wasn’t always happy about it. As a young man I knew that giving some of my french fries to friends next to me is more socially acceptable than telling them to buy them on their own. As a man I was taught, that I should respect people next to me regardless if they are younger, older, male or female.

Due to my families raising methods I became a very sharing person. More than that, I became a good guy. Everyone loves the good guys, you can cry your soul out on their shoulder, you can go out with them without being sexually attracted to them. You can share your deepest secrets with them and knowing, they will never tell. Oh yes, everyone loves the good guys.

The only people who don’t like the good guys are the good guys themselves. The longer you stay in this “Nice guy” lifestyle, the more you will get exploited in any possible ways.

After long years of practicing this lifestyle and being exploited by my friends, family, supervisors, school and girlfriends you just either accept who you are or change your lifestyle.

As much I wanted to change myself, I always kept being the person I am. You can’t really fight your nature, doesn’t matter how things are.

While life is a never ending learning process I figured out, that selfishness is one of the worst characteristics you can learn and practice. It’s deadly as poison, sharp as a newly made knife and as hurtful as pouring salt into a fresh wound. Nevertheless, people decide to be that way. Some decide to bully, hurt and kill, others decide to smile, help and love.

I am sacrificing everything to make my friends, family and beloved ones happy, still I am falling on my knees on every single day and regret that I couldn’t be that “bad boy”, because I never learned how to.

The older I get, the more it hurts to see, that these people are still out there and they will hurt you, regardless what happened before, if you loved them or knew they are this way, they will hurt you, with an arrogance and style, like you never thought would be possible. They will enjoy your pain for a second, wave their hand and move on. While you bleed on the ground on the edge of life and death, they will take a second look, smile and walk away.

 

After a while, when you get up again and realize what happened, you will be the one rethinking the decisions, actions and regret all wrong you have done, whilst the selfish person will not even remember any of their self-focused actions.

You think you learn after a while and you think you learn from your mistakes to go on to a better life until you smash your head in running straight through a solid wall of reality, waking you up from your dream life.

Therefore I advise you to not assume things, to not trust people, to try to see through them before they get you down and to not let them burn the last piece of good in you. I can only hope you will be wiser and learn more from your mistakes than I have. I can only hope that all the selfish people out there are going to pay their price and I can only say, we as the “nice guys”, we have a fucking hard life to go through, not the self-centric, confident and not caring assholes out there.

I hope you all meet my old friend Karma, she tends to be fair.

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Feeling this…

The human mind is an incredible tool which works in so many ridiculously impressive and unpredictable ways.

The feelings we have make us human and have a big influence on all the things on our minds.

I recently discovered how close minded some of the “open minded” people actually are, hell I discovered, that even I am the close minded at some things.

As much as I hate all of the feelings I am carrying inside myself, I have to admit, that I am happy to be filled up with emotions instead of a hollow shell.

I am feeling sorry for all the people around, who are just interested in money, materialism and capitalism. Don’t get me wrong, money is important, having a new electronic devices was and always will be for me a thing which makes me happy and capitalizing on a project you have set up yourself is a good thing how to go through life, but seriously guys… That’s not it, is it?

Is this all you seek in life? “Getting money, getting bitches“ – as they say?

Yes, it all looks so perfect from the distance, having the money you can afford anything in life, having all the sex you want will not fulfil your heart with love on a long run.

I want as well money a working business and all the sex possible somehow, but I will rather settle up with a normal job, living a healthy love filled life with hopefully having a wife one day and just be happy to be here, instead of all the money.

I would change all my money, education, knowledge and belongings just to be happy.

Some say: “If you are one of those people who thinks ‘Happiness is not about money, it’s not about things you can buy’, then you don’t know what life is about and your argument is pointless as you have never been poor”.

I can only agree, I have never been poor to the point of being homeless or begging for money, but I also was never rich and my whole family was on a money roller coaster putting us up and down on a regular basis.

What I am saying is, that I would rather be a poor person with a heart of gold than a person with a golden house without any feelings and stone cold.

 

Today I woke up with a good feeling, having a match with a girl on one of the social applications on my phone. Filled with a little of hope I grabbed my phone and started texting her.

She rejected me.

You see rejection is something we need to deal on a daily basis, it doesn’t matter if it’s in human relations, your job or any other area. I think I have been rejected so many times, I should be used to it.

In the end it was not the rejection that hurt me, because being honest, people need time to even like me or talk to me in a normal “friendly” way and I don’t blame them, I am an unstable piece of hard work to get to know me.

The thing what hurt me was the rejection followed up by insults about my intelligence by a girl which I approached with an open heart.

Even though you are not into these apps, stay with me to get my point.

You don’t know anything about that person and she doesn’t know anything about you but your profile description and some pictures. That’s all you have and all you can work with.

To make it a good conversation you have one shot and that is one message, it’s the decision if you gonna stay in contact, if she even replies or if you even want to give it a try.

I suppose my approach is not very good and therefore I am less successful then my friends at this and I don’t even mind, I just mind trying to be honest, friendly or just a gentleman, which is not respected and clearly not appreciated nowadays.

I am the nice guy showing up at your work with roses for your birthday, but women don’t want that.

I am the deluded guy writing to you a good morning and thinking about you before I go to sleep, but women don’t want that.

I am the weird guy who stays with you if you are sick and look after you, but women don’t want that.

Well, what do women want? I don’t know that (obviously).

But what I know is that just being nice is not enough, or it’s maybe even too much.

Nowadays the game has changed, you don’t win by being good and nice, you don’t win by giving love and forgiveness and especially it will not make you happy, because you gonna get hurt every time you expose yourself like this.

Coming back to my initial idea. I love being emotional and being filled with feelings, but man…

Man… It’s hard.

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Stay yourself – NOT

As opposing article to my previous one “Stay true to yourself”, this reflects the other side of the story, how we people are changing and how nothing is going to stay forever.

In a German song they sing – roughly translated – “Everything has an end, but why does it need to be the ending?”. I am obsessed with searching for lyrics and meanings of the songs that I love, unfortunately this might hurt some people, when they tell me it’s their favorite song and then I explain the actual meaning of the song (check the “Pumped up Kicks by Foster the People” if you want to know what I mean).

So recently my relationship has ended, and I got dumped. I am not complaining or crying my soul out on the internet, (I did that already subconsciously in other articles) I rather think about stuff and try to improve. That doesn’t just build up self confidence but also shows the person what they are missing. Heh, not that anyone would care, right?

One of the key sentences I was told from my hoped to be soul mate was – “Stay yourself.”

You know the moments, when somebody triggers a feeling in you by saying something and it just hits you right in the face, or in the feels, to be more specific.

I am a person dealing with a lot of negative stuff and I am hardly managing my life, I am still surprised to be here around with all of you and being able to write this down without having a mental breakdown but still I am here, giving ideas, advises and thoughts of my daily life.

So the expression of “Stay yourself” was at that point and actually still is ridiculous. Nobody can expect to stay yourself. Why you ask? Because you just experienced a disappointing life experienced, which has totally changed your view on so many things. I mean from every relationship or even from every failure in your life, you should try to learn, overcome it and go on with your life in such a way to not do the same mistakes. I was also saying this expression when I was younger, or I say it to people when I find them awesome and want them to continue with their awesomeness.

Anyway, getting dumped and staying yourself is not an option. Well it is, but a very horrible one. As it’s said doing the same thing over and over again without learning from your mistake defines insanity. Therefore I am gladly rejecting to stay myself. I will much rather learn from it, get over it, improve myself, analyze what I have done wrong, and never ever want to be my past self again.

This is all connected to my last article. Stay true to yourself, but learn, transform, evolve, get better and show them what you’ve got, because if they don’t appreciate you, they are not worth of your presence.

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Stay true to yourself!

Today I approached with yet another “How are you?” question. As for many situation you would just go with the usual “I am fine” and move on.

Don’t be mistaken poor friend, if you are important to me I am going to give you my answer. Honest, straight and showing no mercy. Ok, that actually sounds a little bit harsh, but I like to stay true to myself and if you are really interested in my life, I will give you a straight up answer.

I have the bad habit to speak up what I am thinking and giving straight information, constructive critique, opinions sometimes even without thinking about the consequences.

The lack of truth in a conversation and small talk often causes misunderstandings.

Imagine the case of a friend which you didn’t speak with for longer than a year and suddenly (s)he approaches you. After a small behavior and politeness test of – “How are you?” – “I am fine, what about you?” – “Good, me too, thanks for the question” – we reach the point where the friend is ready to ask for your advice or even a favor. We all were there, nothing really to talk about with that “friend of the past”, but then (s)he approaches you with a question of favor or need.

I wonder sometimes why are we undergoing the same situations – politeness tests – every single day. Don’t get me wrong, I am sure I did this many times before as well, I don’t want to be a hypocrite at this, but I also realize my situation and try to be as straight forward as it gets.

“Hi there, I hope you are fine and I regret that we didn’t speak for so long, but I would really need your help with this one thing.” – is a sentence which I would really much more appreciate to hear then the 15 minutes small talk BS which we are given most of the times.

Coming back to my “Stay true” story, as I am responding with my honest feeling about how I feel today, you can already see the conversation turning the wrong way. My passive aggressive approach was not really helpful at this point as well I suppose, but hey, this is how I actually feel, you wanted to hear it, now deal with it.

As a very emotional person I like to be honest, see and observe how people react to that and how they handle it. Some back up and stop abrupt the conversation, some empathies with it and get more into detail, maybe even pass you a small advice or wish you a good day, others just get angry and regret they ever talked to you.

This is all up to the people and their consciousness. I am not saying you should be always polite to the people, I am not saying you should be an A-hole to the people who are approaching you, I am saying – be true to yourself – do not fear what others will think about you and do not even care if the person can deal with it or not, be honest, don’t BS people.

You want to know how am I? I am happy, I am thankful, I am free and I am myself. If you don’t like me for who I am, we are not compatible and we don’t have to be friends. I am not here for your entertainment, neither will I give you the generic “I am fine” answer most of the time, because that’s not how I work.

After all this applies not only to small talk, but to all situations in life. If Mike tells you to jump of the cliff, think for yourself before you do it. When people tell you that it’s not possible, search for a solution and make it possible. Do not seek problems, search for solutions, do not adapt and imitate others, do your thing and leave the circle of 99% of people who do the same thing as they were taught in their childhood. You don’t need to be a hipster or a rebel at all cause, but you need to wake up, turn on your brain and do what is the best.

Since I moved to a bigger city I am seeing this people going over the city with this look on their faces of “I am something special”. The sad part of this is, that every single one of those people think, they are someone special. Rollback to reality – No, dear Sir with your white hat and white shoes, no, you are not – No, girl with that pink purse and red lipstick, no, you are not.

We are all the same, we are all souls packed in different covers, which might look from the outside brighter, sparkling, fresh or handsome, on the other hand as well darker, stranger, weird or even awful, but what really matters is how you behave, how do you approach everything in your life and what you are going to do with the situations which you need to solve in your life and therefore I am saygin – Stay true to yourself.

 

 

Some people like to be the ones in the crowd, I like to stand out and scream the loudest.

– RAAAAWR

Don’t be a sheep

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Phoenix

It’s very interesting how small things can change your way of thinking, your mood and even your life completely.

While watching a youtube streamer I noticed a very smart thought he was talking about. Basically the idea was, that there are so many opportunities in our lives we are missing on a daily basis and it’s only on us to not miss those opportunities.

To use his words: “Imagine you are at the barber and next to you is another guy, you start to speak with him and *boom* you get a new business partner. A few months later you open a business with him and again later that year you already earn billions of dollars and why is that? Because you took your chance and you talked to that random stranger at the barber.”

He is totally right and this happens to us on a daily basis. Ok, maybe not getting a business partner who helps you getting billions of dollars, but for sure we are missing hundreds of opportunities every day.

It’s the girl who smiled at you in the tram and you didn’t dare to talk to her. It’s the friend, who didn’t look very well today and you were too self-focused, to ask about his mood. It’s the old guy carrying a huge luggage to the train up the stairs, but you didn’t help him, cause you didn’t want to bother him.

You never know what comes out of those situations, it’s important to realize that and use it to your advantage. It might help you, maybe just to lighten up someone else’s mood, which actually makes you feel good as well.

Taking your shot is the one moment which makes it really count. If you fail even though you took your chance, because the girl from the tram did smile at the guy behind you and doesn’t want to be bothered by you. Or because the friend doesn’t want to talk to you, because you are actually the one who made him feel mad. Or even when the old guy carrying his luggage will feel offended and harassed by you, don’t be sorry. Why? Because you had the best intentions.

Stay focused, help people, be good and if you fail, raise like a phoenix from the ashes and go on. You need to think positive to stay on this vibes, enjoy your life and have a good karma to drag more good things into your life.

I totally see and feel how cheesy my article looks after several weeks of feeling miserable, but on the other hand, you got no choice, you need to go on and to go on you need to stay motivated. So give it a try, stay motivated, stay positive, raise like a phoenix and show those bastards, that you are better than others think of you.

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Icarus

Sometimes you have a really good time and you try to get the best out of it. You are gonna be full of energy, enthusiasm and you will feel like you can change the world. It’s going to be the time, when you feel indestructible, nobody can stop you. Your job is appreciated, your friends are happy to know you, your relations going to bloom and your life will seem perfect for this few moments.

That’s the time you need to stay focused on the good things and try to elaborate them, get the most of what you can and live your life.

Not only this will never last, you will have a time when you get back on your knees and you are definitely going to be dragged through the mud of life’s deepest shit hole, because from what I have learned in life, nothing will last forever.

People say always to look forward, don’t look back in anger and live in the now. This is from my point of view very correct but you also should never forget your failures, your missed opportunities and the times you were down, not to lower your mood, but to be ready whenever it hits you again.

It’s recommendable to stay alerted, to not fall deep down in the dirt again. The higher we fly the lower we fall, they say. And yes, I can’t deny that, most of my life decisions if good or bad ended up in something good turning in something bad.

Now you could say of course, that it’s the other side around, we do get back on your feet, when we are down and we get back stronger. Again this might be right, as we have (Hopefully) learned our lesson and will come back tougher, but we should also analyse our mistakes, judge our decisions, replay the situations how you could have done things differently and especially remember, always remember.

People might say things like: „Forget about it, that’s yesterday, today is a different day.“

Yes it is, and to make this different new day your own and get the best out of it, you need to remember yesterdays failures and get better.

I always think about the greek mythology. I really like the stories, mystery and strenght greek mythology consists of. Therefore Icarus, everyone knows the story of the poor fellow, who flew too close to the sun until his wax wings melted and he fell down.

This is you and you already feel the sun warming up your skin.

Now do not forget about the times, when your wings melted and you fell. Yes, go out and enjoy your time up there, see the mountains of joy, watch the birds of love flying around you, breath the refreshing air of greatfullness and feel the wind giving you new energy, but don’t forget you are in the air for just so long.

Everything has an end, it’s just a matter of time when you are gonna fall.

But don’t worry, you are going to raise your head again and go on, the questions after that will only be different…

 

Did you learn something out of that?

id you remember, analyze and replay your breaking points?

Or did you forget about yesterday?

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